[Rey snaps, but she is a hypocrite in this. She had done the same to Poe, to Finn, and to Leia when she brought up Ben. She had isolated herself for it, believing it was a way to atone for causing that fight. In this, she can't win. Protecting her friends...it only seems to blow up in her face.
She doesn't want to make Alex even more upset, but she wants to fix this. But how? No doubt Alex wouldn't want her to find Richard and drag him back.
There's a long pause as Rey tries to reign in her anger.]
..What do you want me to do, Alex? Do you want to keep yelling at me?
[The questions are asked softly, trying to fix what's currently in her control.]
[Alex is very calm and certain when she says it, because she means it. She'd been thinking about it a lot over the last few months, even before Simon showed up and told her that she's as much at the center of this as Strand is. Even suspecting that something terrible would happen to her, she'd still make that choice and step in front of that bullet if need be to save Richard and the world.
But for now, she just sighs softly, her anger spent. Alex's anger tends to be a flash anyway, too bright and too hot and too quickly to burn out, and this time is no exception. She wishes that it would have been, because it's easier to be angry then to be hurting as much as she is, but for now it's done.]
I'd ask you to apologize, but I know that is a terrible and stupid idea because it'd only end up getting worse down the road. You two have tempers too alike. So, I'm going to ask that you not contact him again. Please.
[A beat, before she adds:]
Before you ask, this doesn't mean that we're not friends anymore or anything like that, Rey. Yes, I'm upset but I'm still your friend. I hope you're still mine.
[There's a long moment of silence, with Rey trying to take in Alex's words. Of trying to understand them, or get it through her head that it wasn't her choice to make. It's Alex's, and if it gets her killed--no, she can't accept that. She doesn't want to accept it, but it's the truth. It's the reality they're facing.
It's a selfish decision. It's a stupid decision--but it's Alex's, and Rey cannot take that away. Even if it upsets Rey a lot, it's a bitter pill she has to swallow.
She wants to yell, she wants to snap back and push Alex away. Tell her that she hopes Alex doesn't come to regret those words--or not to interfere if the roles ever become reversed. It would be childish and stupid, and it's so tempting to simply push back. To snap and close that door, abandon Alex before Rey causes more pain between the two of them. No..she can't run from this...but maybe she can just...distance herself and try to sort things out on her own.
She swallows a lump that's been forming in her throat.]
I won't contact him again.
[That is a vow she doesn't intend to break, even if an apology is due. And through all of this, Alex....Alex defends Richard, but none of the things he's said to Rey are apologized for. Nothing to her defense...so be it.]
We can still be friends.
[Just not as close. Just so Rey won't be hurt again, or cause someone else this sort of pain. Maybe she was over thinking things, but Alex...it stings more than she anticipated.]
Sorry Alex.
[She's had enough and decides to end the call there.]
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[Rey snaps, but she is a hypocrite in this. She had done the same to Poe, to Finn, and to Leia when she brought up Ben. She had isolated herself for it, believing it was a way to atone for causing that fight. In this, she can't win. Protecting her friends...it only seems to blow up in her face.
She doesn't want to make Alex even more upset, but she wants to fix this. But how? No doubt Alex wouldn't want her to find Richard and drag him back.
There's a long pause as Rey tries to reign in her anger.]
..What do you want me to do, Alex? Do you want to keep yelling at me?
[The questions are asked softly, trying to fix what's currently in her control.]
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[Alex is very calm and certain when she says it, because she means it. She'd been thinking about it a lot over the last few months, even before Simon showed up and told her that she's as much at the center of this as Strand is. Even suspecting that something terrible would happen to her, she'd still make that choice and step in front of that bullet if need be to save Richard and the world.
But for now, she just sighs softly, her anger spent. Alex's anger tends to be a flash anyway, too bright and too hot and too quickly to burn out, and this time is no exception. She wishes that it would have been, because it's easier to be angry then to be hurting as much as she is, but for now it's done.]
I'd ask you to apologize, but I know that is a terrible and stupid idea because it'd only end up getting worse down the road. You two have tempers too alike. So, I'm going to ask that you not contact him again. Please.
[A beat, before she adds:]
Before you ask, this doesn't mean that we're not friends anymore or anything like that, Rey. Yes, I'm upset but I'm still your friend. I hope you're still mine.
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It's a selfish decision. It's a stupid decision--but it's Alex's, and Rey cannot take that away. Even if it upsets Rey a lot, it's a bitter pill she has to swallow.
She wants to yell, she wants to snap back and push Alex away. Tell her that she hopes Alex doesn't come to regret those words--or not to interfere if the roles ever become reversed. It would be childish and stupid, and it's so tempting to simply push back. To snap and close that door, abandon Alex before Rey causes more pain between the two of them. No..she can't run from this...but maybe she can just...distance herself and try to sort things out on her own.
She swallows a lump that's been forming in her throat.]
I won't contact him again.
[That is a vow she doesn't intend to break, even if an apology is due. And through all of this, Alex....Alex defends Richard, but none of the things he's said to Rey are apologized for. Nothing to her defense...so be it.]
We can still be friends.
[Just not as close. Just so Rey won't be hurt again, or cause someone else this sort of pain. Maybe she was over thinking things, but Alex...it stings more than she anticipated.]
Sorry Alex.
[She's had enough and decides to end the call there.]