[There's a long moment of silence, with Rey trying to take in Alex's words. Of trying to understand them, or get it through her head that it wasn't her choice to make. It's Alex's, and if it gets her killed--no, she can't accept that. She doesn't want to accept it, but it's the truth. It's the reality they're facing.
It's a selfish decision. It's a stupid decision--but it's Alex's, and Rey cannot take that away. Even if it upsets Rey a lot, it's a bitter pill she has to swallow.
She wants to yell, she wants to snap back and push Alex away. Tell her that she hopes Alex doesn't come to regret those words--or not to interfere if the roles ever become reversed. It would be childish and stupid, and it's so tempting to simply push back. To snap and close that door, abandon Alex before Rey causes more pain between the two of them. No..she can't run from this...but maybe she can just...distance herself and try to sort things out on her own.
She swallows a lump that's been forming in her throat.]
I won't contact him again.
[That is a vow she doesn't intend to break, even if an apology is due. And through all of this, Alex....Alex defends Richard, but none of the things he's said to Rey are apologized for. Nothing to her defense...so be it.]
We can still be friends.
[Just not as close. Just so Rey won't be hurt again, or cause someone else this sort of pain. Maybe she was over thinking things, but Alex...it stings more than she anticipated.]
Sorry Alex.
[She's had enough and decides to end the call there.]
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Date: 2018-08-07 04:20 am (UTC)It's a selfish decision. It's a stupid decision--but it's Alex's, and Rey cannot take that away. Even if it upsets Rey a lot, it's a bitter pill she has to swallow.
She wants to yell, she wants to snap back and push Alex away. Tell her that she hopes Alex doesn't come to regret those words--or not to interfere if the roles ever become reversed. It would be childish and stupid, and it's so tempting to simply push back. To snap and close that door, abandon Alex before Rey causes more pain between the two of them. No..she can't run from this...but maybe she can just...distance herself and try to sort things out on her own.
She swallows a lump that's been forming in her throat.]
I won't contact him again.
[That is a vow she doesn't intend to break, even if an apology is due. And through all of this, Alex....Alex defends Richard, but none of the things he's said to Rey are apologized for. Nothing to her defense...so be it.]
We can still be friends.
[Just not as close. Just so Rey won't be hurt again, or cause someone else this sort of pain. Maybe she was over thinking things, but Alex...it stings more than she anticipated.]
Sorry Alex.
[She's had enough and decides to end the call there.]