[It really does sound like he's saying that as if to give him an excuse for what he is saying. For not being the monster that she was expecting]
When I was younger, it may not have been my top desire.
[He's silent at that comment. Does he think the Force guided her to him? No, not really. That was more just something that happened. He can't really lie though. They've both somewhat declared neutral ground by buying into the "it's a dream" thing.]
[Yes, she was quite aware that this was a dream. But him...a monster...she wants to believe that, but the longer she is around him, the more she starts to see him as human. Someone who has a past, and someone who is...lost. He doesn't seem fully committed to the Darkside, but she wouldn't tell him that.]
..doesn't make sense.
[For it to lead her to him. To have him in her dream, or to be connected as they were. She was meant to train with Luke, wasn't she? Otherwise, why would she have his lightsaber? But if she was meant to go to him, why did she feel so connect to Ren?]
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