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talentedscavenger) wrote2017-09-03 02:34 pm
talentedscavenger) wrote2017-09-03 02:34 pm
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Thanks.
Thanks.
[ it's a rare event when jyn initiates touch, but she doesn't hesitate to cover rey's hand with her own. jyn doesn't have visions, but she does have nightmares that make her feel as discomfited as rey looks. ]
Chirrut could see... how the Force moved around people. And seeing him fight, you'd never know that he was completely blind. The Force guided him. I acted like it was rubbish, but.
[ she knew. he was as close as a jedi as she would ever meet. until rey. ]
Chirrut could see... how the Force moved around people. And seeing him fight, you'd never know that he was completely blind. The Force guided him. I acted like it was rubbish, but.
[ she knew. he was as close as a jedi as she would ever meet. until rey. ]
[Visions and nightmares are what Rey receives. The vision she had when she touched Ben's hand wasn't as painful as that first vision where every cell of her being was buzzing with energy. Her mind and heart overwhelmed from the residual feelings of the vision.
She wasn't sure what Jyn would think of her. Nothing really had changed, just something Rey had kept hidden and believed she should tell Jyn about. It was time she told her--and by association, Cassian.
Rey is grateful for Jyn's hand, squeezing it.]
I never met anyone who could the Force, not until I was on Takodana. I thought it was for...others. I never thought I could, but... [She looked up at Jyn, guilt creeping into her eyes.] I didn't want to keep this from you anymore.
She wasn't sure what Jyn would think of her. Nothing really had changed, just something Rey had kept hidden and believed she should tell Jyn about. It was time she told her--and by association, Cassian.
Rey is grateful for Jyn's hand, squeezing it.]
I never met anyone who could the Force, not until I was on Takodana. I thought it was for...others. I never thought I could, but... [She looked up at Jyn, guilt creeping into her eyes.] I didn't want to keep this from you anymore.
Come to [LOCATION] at 6pm on [DATE]. You may bring one date if you must.
[ how inviting. obviously the location is the location of a home and the date is sometime in mid-august that i don't want to settle on at the moment so YOLO. boom, come to a party. bring 1 friend. ]
[ how inviting. obviously the location is the location of a home and the date is sometime in mid-august that i don't want to settle on at the moment so YOLO. boom, come to a party. bring 1 friend. ]
Who are you and what have you done to Jyn?
:p
:p
Why would I say no?
Edited 2018-08-02 01:06 (UTC)
What kind of cake?
Wait, that's it? You're not going to tell me anything else?
Wait, that's it? You're not going to tell me anything else?
[ Within a few second Rey is calling Alex. ]
Are you okay?
[ What’s wrong? What happened?]
Are you okay?
[ What’s wrong? What happened?]
[ She’s taken aback by how stuffy Alex sounds and now....now she’s confused to what happened and how she was involved. ]
What exactly did I do?
[ She didn’t do anything!! ]
What exactly did I do?
[ She didn’t do anything!! ]
I...I’m sorry.
[ Rey is completely taken aback by this. She didn’t think of it that way. She thought she was helping! ]
I wanted to find out more details—and yes, I went about it the wrong way, but I didn’t do it to hurt you.
[ Never mind the fact Richard insulted her repeatedly. ]
[ Rey is completely taken aback by this. She didn’t think of it that way. She thought she was helping! ]
I wanted to find out more details—and yes, I went about it the wrong way, but I didn’t do it to hurt you.
[ Never mind the fact Richard insulted her repeatedly. ]
Edited 2018-08-04 01:00 (UTC)
Rey, I told you all the details. I told you private things about him that I shouldn't during that fight when we mentioned it. Richard left for good reasons. I destroyed his life. That's why he left the first time. There were other reasons too, but what I did? My show? Completely was my fault. It's why I needed to go find him that first time, and drag him back to the land of the living.
The second, I understand. He hurt me, yes, but I understand it. And I know he was a complete asshole, but you came to his friendr and started it. I told you things about his family, about what he was facing, about what his life has been like and still you went and did this. I don't understand. How would you feel if I was a stranger and went to Kylo with the things you've told me?
The second, I understand. He hurt me, yes, but I understand it. And I know he was a complete asshole, but you came to his friendr and started it. I told you things about his family, about what he was facing, about what his life has been like and still you went and did this. I don't understand. How would you feel if I was a stranger and went to Kylo with the things you've told me?
I remember that, but you also said he left a second time? [Questioning that, because she is going through their conversation in her mind and trying to remember every single thing that was said, or texted.] He hurt you, and I wanted to defend you and protect--and that wasn't my place to do so. [It's not her job, it's not, but it does make her question things on her side. ]
He also made a mean remark about you--and I tried to defend you. [Don't go dragging Ben into this... Don't get upset, just let Alex vent...but this does hurt.]
I wouldn't like it--but would you be doing it to protect me? Or doing it to start a fight? I wasn't trying to start a fight, I wasn't trying to be mean or anything. I wanted to know if he cared enough about you to not hurt you again! That's all I wanted.
He also made a mean remark about you--and I tried to defend you. [Don't go dragging Ben into this... Don't get upset, just let Alex vent...but this does hurt.]
I wouldn't like it--but would you be doing it to protect me? Or doing it to start a fight? I wasn't trying to start a fight, I wasn't trying to be mean or anything. I wanted to know if he cared enough about you to not hurt you again! That's all I wanted.
Edited 2018-08-06 23:43 (UTC)
The second time he had a damned good reason too. I wish he had told me before it but I understand why. Does it hurt, yes! But I know why he did it. I understand why he did it, and it's not even something that I needed to forgive him for.
Richard is an asshole. It says it right on the friendr post, Rey. He's an asshole and he can be snide and he can be a complete dickhead, and yes, he can be cruel sometimes, but he doesn't say mean things about me maliciously. He's just really bad at the social thing.
[Not unlike someone else she cares for, Rey.]
I know him, and I understand him, and in the end I'll probably forgive him anything. I appreciate that you were trying to protect me, but I also need you to trust my judgment on things. On him. Even if other people don't think it's sound or a good idea? I love Richard Strand. I am going to be with him to the end of the world and back if need be. He loves me, Rey. He has his own ways of showing it? And his reasons for showing it that way? But he loves me.
I know you weren't trying to cause a fight, Rey. I definitely wouldn't have been doing it to cause a fight either. But you did. A massive one.
[One that ended with him leaving and not coming back yet.]
Richard is an asshole. It says it right on the friendr post, Rey. He's an asshole and he can be snide and he can be a complete dickhead, and yes, he can be cruel sometimes, but he doesn't say mean things about me maliciously. He's just really bad at the social thing.
[Not unlike someone else she cares for, Rey.]
I know him, and I understand him, and in the end I'll probably forgive him anything. I appreciate that you were trying to protect me, but I also need you to trust my judgment on things. On him. Even if other people don't think it's sound or a good idea? I love Richard Strand. I am going to be with him to the end of the world and back if need be. He loves me, Rey. He has his own ways of showing it? And his reasons for showing it that way? But he loves me.
I know you weren't trying to cause a fight, Rey. I definitely wouldn't have been doing it to cause a fight either. But you did. A massive one.
[One that ended with him leaving and not coming back yet.]
And if that gets you killed, then what?
[Rey snaps, but she is a hypocrite in this. She had done the same to Poe, to Finn, and to Leia when she brought up Ben. She had isolated herself for it, believing it was a way to atone for causing that fight. In this, she can't win. Protecting her friends...it only seems to blow up in her face.
She doesn't want to make Alex even more upset, but she wants to fix this. But how? No doubt Alex wouldn't want her to find Richard and drag him back.
There's a long pause as Rey tries to reign in her anger.]
..What do you want me to do, Alex? Do you want to keep yelling at me?
[The questions are asked softly, trying to fix what's currently in her control.]
[Rey snaps, but she is a hypocrite in this. She had done the same to Poe, to Finn, and to Leia when she brought up Ben. She had isolated herself for it, believing it was a way to atone for causing that fight. In this, she can't win. Protecting her friends...it only seems to blow up in her face.
She doesn't want to make Alex even more upset, but she wants to fix this. But how? No doubt Alex wouldn't want her to find Richard and drag him back.
There's a long pause as Rey tries to reign in her anger.]
..What do you want me to do, Alex? Do you want to keep yelling at me?
[The questions are asked softly, trying to fix what's currently in her control.]
Then it gets me killed. It's my choice.
[Alex is very calm and certain when she says it, because she means it. She'd been thinking about it a lot over the last few months, even before Simon showed up and told her that she's as much at the center of this as Strand is. Even suspecting that something terrible would happen to her, she'd still make that choice and step in front of that bullet if need be to save Richard and the world.
But for now, she just sighs softly, her anger spent. Alex's anger tends to be a flash anyway, too bright and too hot and too quickly to burn out, and this time is no exception. She wishes that it would have been, because it's easier to be angry then to be hurting as much as she is, but for now it's done.]
I'd ask you to apologize, but I know that is a terrible and stupid idea because it'd only end up getting worse down the road. You two have tempers too alike. So, I'm going to ask that you not contact him again. Please.
[A beat, before she adds:]
Before you ask, this doesn't mean that we're not friends anymore or anything like that, Rey. Yes, I'm upset but I'm still your friend. I hope you're still mine.
[Alex is very calm and certain when she says it, because she means it. She'd been thinking about it a lot over the last few months, even before Simon showed up and told her that she's as much at the center of this as Strand is. Even suspecting that something terrible would happen to her, she'd still make that choice and step in front of that bullet if need be to save Richard and the world.
But for now, she just sighs softly, her anger spent. Alex's anger tends to be a flash anyway, too bright and too hot and too quickly to burn out, and this time is no exception. She wishes that it would have been, because it's easier to be angry then to be hurting as much as she is, but for now it's done.]
I'd ask you to apologize, but I know that is a terrible and stupid idea because it'd only end up getting worse down the road. You two have tempers too alike. So, I'm going to ask that you not contact him again. Please.
[A beat, before she adds:]
Before you ask, this doesn't mean that we're not friends anymore or anything like that, Rey. Yes, I'm upset but I'm still your friend. I hope you're still mine.
[There's a long moment of silence, with Rey trying to take in Alex's words. Of trying to understand them, or get it through her head that it wasn't her choice to make. It's Alex's, and if it gets her killed--no, she can't accept that. She doesn't want to accept it, but it's the truth. It's the reality they're facing.
It's a selfish decision. It's a stupid decision--but it's Alex's, and Rey cannot take that away. Even if it upsets Rey a lot, it's a bitter pill she has to swallow.
She wants to yell, she wants to snap back and push Alex away. Tell her that she hopes Alex doesn't come to regret those words--or not to interfere if the roles ever become reversed. It would be childish and stupid, and it's so tempting to simply push back. To snap and close that door, abandon Alex before Rey causes more pain between the two of them. No..she can't run from this...but maybe she can just...distance herself and try to sort things out on her own.
She swallows a lump that's been forming in her throat.]
I won't contact him again.
[That is a vow she doesn't intend to break, even if an apology is due. And through all of this, Alex....Alex defends Richard, but none of the things he's said to Rey are apologized for. Nothing to her defense...so be it.]
We can still be friends.
[Just not as close. Just so Rey won't be hurt again, or cause someone else this sort of pain. Maybe she was over thinking things, but Alex...it stings more than she anticipated.]
Sorry Alex.
[She's had enough and decides to end the call there.]
It's a selfish decision. It's a stupid decision--but it's Alex's, and Rey cannot take that away. Even if it upsets Rey a lot, it's a bitter pill she has to swallow.
She wants to yell, she wants to snap back and push Alex away. Tell her that she hopes Alex doesn't come to regret those words--or not to interfere if the roles ever become reversed. It would be childish and stupid, and it's so tempting to simply push back. To snap and close that door, abandon Alex before Rey causes more pain between the two of them. No..she can't run from this...but maybe she can just...distance herself and try to sort things out on her own.
She swallows a lump that's been forming in her throat.]
I won't contact him again.
[That is a vow she doesn't intend to break, even if an apology is due. And through all of this, Alex....Alex defends Richard, but none of the things he's said to Rey are apologized for. Nothing to her defense...so be it.]
We can still be friends.
[Just not as close. Just so Rey won't be hurt again, or cause someone else this sort of pain. Maybe she was over thinking things, but Alex...it stings more than she anticipated.]
Sorry Alex.
[She's had enough and decides to end the call there.]
[it's at this very coincidental moment that the door opens and cassian walks inside the apartment. he pauses only briefly when he sees they have company, but he frowns when he picks up on the conversation, little bits and pieces and the force.]
[he sets a bag of groceries down on the counter and raddus meows loudly at him.]
Why are we discussing the jedi? [something about what rey is saying is... too weird, too specific.]
[he sets a bag of groceries down on the counter and raddus meows loudly at him.]
Why are we discussing the jedi? [something about what rey is saying is... too weird, too specific.]
[ jyn recognizes the guilt in rey's eyes, if only because cassian wears guilt like one of his many jackets and she sees it every day, she sees it in her own eyes in the mirror. when cassian walks through the door, she gestures her head to the couch, before just pulling rey behind her. time to sit. ]
The Jedi are real, and not just Chirrut. [ her mouth lifts in a small smile. rey is real so jedi are real. ]
I never really thought the Force liked me that much. I only ever really felt it-- [ she makes a small noise like she can't think of the right way to phrase "when we died". ] At the end. But the Force chose well picking you.
[ a beat. ] You know I lived at Maz's castle for a while.
[ it's not relevant but she loves that green planet. ]
The Jedi are real, and not just Chirrut. [ her mouth lifts in a small smile. rey is real so jedi are real. ]
I never really thought the Force liked me that much. I only ever really felt it-- [ she makes a small noise like she can't think of the right way to phrase "when we died". ] At the end. But the Force chose well picking you.
[ a beat. ] You know I lived at Maz's castle for a while.
[ it's not relevant but she loves that green planet. ]
Edited 2018-08-09 04:52 (UTC)
[Rey's gaze holds steady on Jyn's. She heard Cassian come into their apartment, asking why they were talking about the Jedi and the guilt in her doubles. She would have to retell her tale again, but also explain why she kept it hidden. She didn't want to hold something back from them, but she was still trying to figure things out.
Rey doesn't know how to answer that question, but Jyn does and it makes Rey want to laugh. Of course she'd put it that simply.]
The Jedi...yes, they're real.
[One way to explain it, for now. Rey could feel her cheeks burn at the compliment. She doesn't know if the Force chose well or not, or if she was the only one willing to stand up to Ben...or see a human side to him.]
I wouldn't say that. It's...it's a complicated story.
[And now her focus shifts to Jyn's time with Maz.] How long? You know, she is--was, still there. It was still thriving. [A faint smile danced across her lips thinking about how Maz called Chewie her boyfriend...
Things weren't the same anymore. Her castle was gone thanks to the First Order.]
But, I'm one of them--Jedi that is. I'm still training though...[She thinks she's still in training because while there are things she knows, there's still a lot she doesn't know.
Like what else she could do with the Force. If she can look into the future at will, or anything else of that nature. But if Cassian is skeptical of any of this--because who wouldn't be?--Rey takes the opportunity to take one of Raddus' toys and let's it hover over the cat, dangling it above it's head before floating over to them on the couch.
The Force wasn't a toy, but this was better than showing off a weapon that could injure them.]
Rey doesn't know how to answer that question, but Jyn does and it makes Rey want to laugh. Of course she'd put it that simply.]
The Jedi...yes, they're real.
[One way to explain it, for now. Rey could feel her cheeks burn at the compliment. She doesn't know if the Force chose well or not, or if she was the only one willing to stand up to Ben...or see a human side to him.]
I wouldn't say that. It's...it's a complicated story.
[And now her focus shifts to Jyn's time with Maz.] How long? You know, she is--was, still there. It was still thriving. [A faint smile danced across her lips thinking about how Maz called Chewie her boyfriend...
Things weren't the same anymore. Her castle was gone thanks to the First Order.]
But, I'm one of them--Jedi that is. I'm still training though...[She thinks she's still in training because while there are things she knows, there's still a lot she doesn't know.
Like what else she could do with the Force. If she can look into the future at will, or anything else of that nature. But if Cassian is skeptical of any of this--because who wouldn't be?--Rey takes the opportunity to take one of Raddus' toys and let's it hover over the cat, dangling it above it's head before floating over to them on the couch.
The Force wasn't a toy, but this was better than showing off a weapon that could injure them.]
Edited 2018-08-13 05:33 (UTC)
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