[Seeing the frown on Buck's face, it was clear the answer Rey gave wasn't what he wanted to hear. The apologetic look only solidified that--and she swore she felt her heart twist a little in her chest. Rejection should be something she was used to by now. At least she was honest with her feelings and he was being up front with what he wanted.
Was it wrong that she had hoped things could've gone differently? The young woman bowed her head, biting the inside of her cheek and took a breath. Her walls came rushing back up. She looked back at Buck with an understanding expression.]
Yeah, no. I get it. Thank you for being up front with me. [Rey started to get up from her seat, resisting the urge to say 'bye' and run out of the café. There wasn't a point to sticking around anymore, but she had to polite. This guy was her neighbor now--or had been for a while.] And it was nice meeting you. Maybe we'll run into each other at the complex, but, um...I don't want to waste more of your time.
[God knows it felt like she wasted enough of his time with Tinder and meeting him in person. He'll fine someone better. Someone who wasn't broken.
Rey flashed a small smile, kept her head up and managed to walk out of the café with some of her dignity in tact.
From there, it was a blur. Rey made it to her car and drove back to her apartment, grateful for the small pile of snacks she had. Who needed feelings? Why did she even bother with looking for something when clearly, she wasn't meant for another relationship. God knows what she had with Ben was bad, toxic and not something she wanted to experience again. That didn't stop her from breaking down and calling Finn and regaling him with how bad her date with.
Of course...her best friend had to put her on speaker phone with his boyfriend, Poe. Bless his heart, the man was a hot head at times and wanted to find out where Buck was and have a few words, but that wasn't what she needed (although it was very much appreciated).
"Peanut, did you really leave and not let him explain further?" Finn asked, to which Rey scoffed and wiped her tear stained cheeks.
"Think he made it pretty clear, Peanut. There wasn't a reason for me to stay any longer. And I know, I know it's stupid for me to cry about this. I'm stronger than being some weepy girl, but...I like--liked him."
"Ah, you still like him. Don't do that. Look, you were right in telling him you weren't sure about being serious. From his perspective, I don't blame him. He wasn't asking you to marry him--that would be crazy. But, maybe he was wanting something else? If things do serious between the two of you that you won't run away."
Rey was speechless for a moment, letting Finn's words sink...and embarrassment soon washed over. Rey felt like an idiot. She was prepared to tell her best friend that maybe it was still for the best. He wouldn't let her get away with that excuse. He encouraged her to reach out to Buck when she clamed down to apologize for running out and leaving...and ask for a second date.
The encouragement worked. Rey had prepared to send Buck a text, but couldn't bring herself to do it. Texting all of that felt too impersonal. Maybe she could figure out a way to talk to him in person? Dropping by the fire station was out of the question, that might come off as stalker-ish. Nor was she going to try and figure out his schedule. One day gave way into another, and another until fate decided to intervene by having the mail carrier misdeliver a piece of Buck's mail into her mailbox.
Now, she had his apartment number and a good reason to see him.
Swallowing her nerves, the young woman went up to Bucks door with his mail in hand and knocked. Hopefully he wasn't on shift....and not dead asleep.]
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Date: 2025-03-28 08:09 pm (UTC)Was it wrong that she had hoped things could've gone differently? The young woman bowed her head, biting the inside of her cheek and took a breath. Her walls came rushing back up. She looked back at Buck with an understanding expression.]
Yeah, no. I get it. Thank you for being up front with me. [Rey started to get up from her seat, resisting the urge to say 'bye' and run out of the café. There wasn't a point to sticking around anymore, but she had to polite. This guy was her neighbor now--or had been for a while.] And it was nice meeting you. Maybe we'll run into each other at the complex, but, um...I don't want to waste more of your time.
[God knows it felt like she wasted enough of his time with Tinder and meeting him in person. He'll fine someone better. Someone who wasn't broken.
Rey flashed a small smile, kept her head up and managed to walk out of the café with some of her dignity in tact.
From there, it was a blur. Rey made it to her car and drove back to her apartment, grateful for the small pile of snacks she had. Who needed feelings? Why did she even bother with looking for something when clearly, she wasn't meant for another relationship. God knows what she had with Ben was bad, toxic and not something she wanted to experience again. That didn't stop her from breaking down and calling Finn and regaling him with how bad her date with.
Of course...her best friend had to put her on speaker phone with his boyfriend, Poe. Bless his heart, the man was a hot head at times and wanted to find out where Buck was and have a few words, but that wasn't what she needed (although it was very much appreciated).
"Peanut, did you really leave and not let him explain further?" Finn asked, to which Rey scoffed and wiped her tear stained cheeks.
"Think he made it pretty clear, Peanut. There wasn't a reason for me to stay any longer. And I know, I know it's stupid for me to cry about this. I'm stronger than being some weepy girl, but...I like--liked him."
"Ah, you still like him. Don't do that. Look, you were right in telling him you weren't sure about being serious. From his perspective, I don't blame him. He wasn't asking you to marry him--that would be crazy. But, maybe he was wanting something else? If things do serious between the two of you that you won't run away."
Rey was speechless for a moment, letting Finn's words sink...and embarrassment soon washed over. Rey felt like an idiot. She was prepared to tell her best friend that maybe it was still for the best. He wouldn't let her get away with that excuse. He encouraged her to reach out to Buck when she clamed down to apologize for running out and leaving...and ask for a second date.
The encouragement worked. Rey had prepared to send Buck a text, but couldn't bring herself to do it. Texting all of that felt too impersonal. Maybe she could figure out a way to talk to him in person? Dropping by the fire station was out of the question, that might come off as stalker-ish. Nor was she going to try and figure out his schedule. One day gave way into another, and another until fate decided to intervene by having the mail carrier misdeliver a piece of Buck's mail into her mailbox.
Now, she had his apartment number and a good reason to see him.
Swallowing her nerves, the young woman went up to Bucks door with his mail in hand and knocked. Hopefully he wasn't on shift....and not dead asleep.]