Uh-huh. Then why am I picturing you already plotting to give me something like...
Like an actual board and your “one” present is beneath the board. And you telling me you didn’t go over board because nothing is literally above the board?
[ Yes, she made a joke that’s a bit over complicated but she made a joke! ]
I’ll let you know when I’ve picked a day. I’ll try not to forget.
Then you understand the situation I’m in. Poe and Finn have their reasons to be distrustful of him—very excellent reasons, but considering Ren is here, there are things he could show me that aren’t associated with the Dark Side. I’ve been trying to learn on my own but...there isn’t much for me to learn and I don’t want to do anything that could hurt someone.
I haven’t practiced with the lightsaber because of that reason.
i would never do something like that! (ok maybe i would)
if you forget i'll remind you 😈
i get that. i'm scared to learn to use my powers because i might hurt someone with them but also scared that if i don't learn to control them i might hurt someone with them total catch-22
Exactly! And I know Poe would be against it completely. He thinks there’s another way, but...really there’s not.
And...Ren gave me a book about the Force. It’s more like a notebook but, he wrote a few things down for me. I looked it over and didn’t sense anything wrong with it. Honestly, it’s more information than I’ve been able to find on my own.
well, poe doesn't have powers he didn't ask for and doesn't understand, does he? so of course he doesn't get it. that's not his fault. he just doesn't know what it's like, how isolating and scary it can be.
information isn't good or evil, and educating yourself (if the book is legit and not dark side propaganda i mean) is never bad
No, he doesn't have a connection to the Force. But, it was used on him. What Ren did to me, looking into my mind...he did it to another, and for Poe, he doesn't want me to turn into that. He doesn't want me to sink to that level, or be killed by Ren---but he's had chances to, but he hasn't.
...Even when I was sick at the hospital, he was there when I woke up...and stayed with me. We just...talked. Not about his past or anything, just...talked.
I don't think Poe would understand unless he was grounded for months on end and unable to do anything about it.
It doesn't look like it is. It's all in his hand writing--he has really beautiful hand writing, Cisco.
[ Beautiful hand writing? Okay... yeah. Definitely something there. But Cisco's going to keep that opinion to himself for the time being. Rey has trusted him, opened up to him, and the last thing he wants to do is scare her off. Especially if it's not something she's realized for herself yet. ]
just remember you can always talk to me okay? about the force stuff and the ren stuff and anything, i won't judge i'm on your side.
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Date: 2018-01-31 07:14 pm (UTC)Like an actual board and your “one” present is beneath the board. And you telling me you didn’t go over board because nothing is literally above the board?
[ Yes, she made a joke that’s a bit over complicated but she made a joke! ]
I’ll let you know when I’ve picked a day. I’ll try not to forget.
Then you understand the situation I’m in. Poe and Finn have their reasons to be distrustful of him—very excellent reasons, but considering Ren is here, there are things he could show me that aren’t associated with the Dark Side. I’ve been trying to learn on my own but...there isn’t much for me to learn and I don’t want to do anything that could hurt someone.
I haven’t practiced with the lightsaber because of that reason.
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Date: 2018-01-31 07:23 pm (UTC)(ok maybe i would)
if you forget i'll remind you 😈
i get that.
i'm scared to learn to use my powers because i might hurt someone with them
but also scared that if i don't learn to control them i might hurt someone with them
total catch-22
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Date: 2018-01-31 07:36 pm (UTC)Fine. :p
Exactly! And I know Poe would be against it completely. He thinks there’s another way, but...really there’s not.
And...Ren gave me a book about the Force. It’s more like a notebook but, he wrote a few things down for me. I looked it over and didn’t sense anything wrong with it. Honestly, it’s more information than I’ve been able to find on my own.
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Date: 2018-02-01 08:17 pm (UTC)well, poe doesn't have powers he didn't ask for and doesn't understand, does he?
so of course he doesn't get it. that's not his fault.
he just doesn't know what it's like, how isolating and scary it can be.
information isn't good or evil, and educating yourself (if the book is legit and not dark side propaganda i mean) is never bad
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Date: 2018-02-02 06:34 am (UTC)No, he doesn't have a connection to the Force. But, it was used on him. What Ren did to me, looking into my mind...he did it to another, and for Poe, he doesn't want me to turn into that. He doesn't want me to sink to that level, or be killed by Ren---but he's had chances to, but he hasn't.
...Even when I was sick at the hospital, he was there when I woke up...and stayed with me. We just...talked. Not about his past or anything, just...talked.
I don't think Poe would understand unless he was grounded for months on end and unable to do anything about it.
It doesn't look like it is. It's all in his hand writing--he has really beautiful hand writing, Cisco.
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Date: 2018-02-05 04:55 am (UTC)just remember you can always talk to me okay?
about the force stuff and the ren stuff and anything, i won't judge
i'm on your side.