Rey didn't have to go through this alone. She didn't have to go through anything alone anymore - although Cassian understood all too well just how easy it was to slip back into old habits when stress was so high. His throat tightened as he realized that he was wondering if Rey's clear worry was a detriment to the baby, already concerned about their welfare without even knowing for a fact whether or not she truly was expecting.
He knew he couldn't get caught up in the what ifs of the situation. He needed to be wholly present for Rey. Later, once their suspicions were either confirmed or denied, Cassian could afford (maybe) to sit and contemplate on thoughts he'd buried long, long ago.
Cassian helped Rey down hallways that were blessedly clear of any other personnel, even though he knew that on a base this size, the action never really ceased. He sat with her and held her hand as the droid methodically drew her blood and ran the necessary tests, hoping that his presence helped to calm some of her worries, or helped reassure her that whatever the result, they were in it together.
The droid dispassionately confirmed Rey's pregnancy and Cassian's vision went black for a long moment. He didn't know what to say, much less how to feel, and so, he felt trapped between elation and terror, unsure as to which answer would be the right one.
He knew exactly what the droid would suggest, and fixed it with a warning glance that sent it skittering in another direction entirely. When he looked back to Rey, it was with an expression that was much softer, although still concerned. "That's a discussion better had in private, don't you think?"
Maybe the walk back to his quarters would help clear his mind a little, give him some idea of how he was feeling, what he wanted, what would be the right decision for them.
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Date: 2020-08-21 06:24 pm (UTC)He knew he couldn't get caught up in the what ifs of the situation. He needed to be wholly present for Rey. Later, once their suspicions were either confirmed or denied, Cassian could afford (maybe) to sit and contemplate on thoughts he'd buried long, long ago.
Cassian helped Rey down hallways that were blessedly clear of any other personnel, even though he knew that on a base this size, the action never really ceased. He sat with her and held her hand as the droid methodically drew her blood and ran the necessary tests, hoping that his presence helped to calm some of her worries, or helped reassure her that whatever the result, they were in it together.
The droid dispassionately confirmed Rey's pregnancy and Cassian's vision went black for a long moment. He didn't know what to say, much less how to feel, and so, he felt trapped between elation and terror, unsure as to which answer would be the right one.
He knew exactly what the droid would suggest, and fixed it with a warning glance that sent it skittering in another direction entirely. When he looked back to Rey, it was with an expression that was much softer, although still concerned. "That's a discussion better had in private, don't you think?"
Maybe the walk back to his quarters would help clear his mind a little, give him some idea of how he was feeling, what he wanted, what would be the right decision for them.